I finally sound everything out with all my complains. Overall I still think you are so immature. Instead of realise your mistake, you pushing it all back to me. Our problem is all internal, if you're not observant enough, I bet you won't understand and will start to assumed that I'm the one who start all problem for nothing. I'm really very sick and tired alrd can't you see. Instead you come out a solution to solve, you ask me whether am i still angry. Sometimes I wander you really understand what is going on anot, it's no longer whether I'm still angry anot you know. I can tell you, I'm not angry, there's nothing I can feel now alrd, cos my heart is DEAD. 我和你已经没有爱情，感情也慢慢在淡化了。我的心会隐隐作痛，因为一段婚姻经营得如此的差。

Tired

I'm very tired this few days, really damn tired. Wake up 8am in the morning, prepare darling's stuff, settle myself, bring darling to school and get myself to work. Although is tired, but seriously I quite like it. It can numb myself from bothering those bloody stupid stuff. You must be wandering what bloody stupid stuff, I also not very sure, I started to behave weird, sometimes my attitude was not very good, sometimes I choose to shut my mouth towards everybody except my lil sweet heart. I start boiling easily. I started to have unstable emotion. I really don't know why. Please don't tell me that is a depression, I have been searching information regarding depression in web, but i think I'm not that serious or even don't have maybe I think too much. I get headache easily, I feel like biting and scratching myself when i get agitated. Now I only like to stick with my lil sweet heart, beside work and him and it's still work and him. It has been a long time that I nv hold my stomach and laugh out loud.


:'(

DIRTY DIRTY DIRTY!!!

I really don't understand why some people can simply don't have the responsibility of tidying up of their own nest, that is your very own home isn't it, you have to be responsible to keep it clean and tidy isn't it? Or are you waiting for someone helpful or rather a poor thing who wish to live in a clean enviornment to make it everything done for you all? Well I think it is a responsibilty for everyone who staying together to maintain a clean enviornment.

Misses....

Hi, I really miss blogging like hell! I have been staying at mummy's place for the past 2 weeks. Cause I need to accompany my bf to school and fetch him after school. I loves the feeling when he start to wave at me with his lil hand and say bye bye to me without crying, I loves to see his face when he finish his school. I loves staying mummy's place so much The only thing I need to complain is, mummy's place don't have a computer, it caused my hand to itch terribly when I wanted to blog and surf net. How I wish I got a personal laptop that I can bring it along with me wherever I go, so that I can blog and surf net anytime anywhere.


Gotta end here, will blog more with more photo upload when I found my free time... Bye byeee!

Catz

This day, we happen to passed by this cat sitting in this funny position on the way back home, I found it cute so I took these pictures down. This weird cat sit just like a human being. Funny sia! BUT I seriously dislike cat, actually can put it this way, I scare of cats. I scare their long tail , they always touches you when they pass under your sit at the kopitiam when you happily having your meal. EEeeeeee "er xin" lo.

sick~~

Both darling and me is not feeling well............................................. :-(

Poor lil darling start his running nose this morning after bathing, at 1st I just tot that it caused by the air con every morning as usual. After school, his teacher informed me that his running nose is getting from bad to worst. Just brought him to consult the doctor earlier on, doctor said he only have minor flu and cough not serious. Darling was given 3 different medicine to finish. cough (black in colour"coke"), flu (green in colour "green apple" and fever (pink in colour "strawberry") mixture. Darling says this medicines are coke, green apple and strawberry to overcome his fear of swallowing these all down his throat.. haha cute~~ Now he is sleeping, not really having a good sleep I can tell, as he keep turning left and right and keep sneezing. My heart is so painful to see him like this. Haix, hopefully this virus wont pester him for long.

Poor me, rib cage aching since morning, it has been torturing me for good.... The feeling is like one of my rib broken, dangling inside me and rub with my organ inside me.. the feeling is so uncomfortable. I hope this can recover ASAP, I don't wanna end myself up in any hospital or clinic caused it's also kinda troublesome when you visit this kinda places. May god bless my son and me to recover soon. AMEN.

I caught it red handed!!!!!

LOOK What's this !!! I caught my bf holding another girl's hand. Rayius Eloy, I pay your school fee is for you to learn in school not for you to "sian char bo" okay!!! whahaha



Darling really love this lil cute si ying alot, he'll always wanna hold her hand after school and walk back home tgt.



SoOOOoooO cute!

1st july 09.

Ikea again, after darling's class we went Tampines branch to search for our stuff. Look at naughty Rayius above, looks like his house ya. LOL! I have been staying at my mummy house for the past few days since Rayius started school, it had been so long that I nv really enjoy the time with my family, the feeling was soOoOo shiok, have not been staying at my own house for long, this time round I really really enjoy and release staying at home, only staying at my own house, then I know what is call home sweet home , hee... Readers that read this part might be wandering whether I'm upset staying here, Yes I can tell you. I'm super duper uncomfortable and unhappy staying here. maybe I really like privacy lo, and I love and miss my family more...

30th June 2009

This day was a very very busy day, in the afternoon, I meet my mummy at Ikea to shop for some small furniture, and mummy was LATE for nearly an hour, quite pissed off but luckily I got my darling accompany me. We headed to the Ikea restaurant for some pasta and meat balls. After eating, we started to take out my hp and play a fool with the camera while waiting mummy to come, but all those pictures taken by darling was bloody ugly la, so I deleted all. We didn't actually buy much cos the stocks at Alexandra branch is not so complete. So, mummy decided to go Tampines branch the next day.

Next I had to rush to KK hospital to visit Eileen with Doreen, so mummy ask me to share a cab with her and she send me down there. Due to the H1n1 disease, it's kinda of many many process and registration in order to enter the hospital, so instead of we going up to visit her, she came down to see us. ha ha ha, don't say we cruel hor, cos she got a lot of friends who visited her at the same timing and only 2 person per visit. So isn't it better for her to come down hee. Just kidding, we can't really wait for our turn to come cos lil Kycia is crying for hunger in the car alrd, so we are quite rush. After that went to Doreen house "chop chop" settle our dinner fast as I got another shift to go~~ haha


This is naughty Kycia, playing so crazily in the car with me. In the end she got a nightmare that night... hahaha







Next, rushed to woodlands centre to meet my family, have to buy darling's school shoes and shop for groceries.I cannot imagine we can shop till sheng siong closed at the time of 11pm. wow!!!

Time for introducing products, I was wandering why the clothes that mummy washed always smell so fragrance, now i know it's a softener brand "DOWRY". It;s really smell soOooO nice lo!!!

He always likes to sit in there.......

Darling's new pair of school shoes and slippers. "婆婆买的" thank you mummy for so loving Rayius!!!!

1st july 09. rayius 1st day of school !!!

STAR TOTS PLAYGROUP

my darling is seriously playing with the puzzle



These are all my darling's classmates


This lil boy here is one of my darling's classmate Lincoln, I was so impressed by him cos he actually gave my darling a warm hug, when my my darling 1st step in to the class, this lil boy is very very cute, he got so many funny funny behavior that makes me laugh.



This is my darling with his uniform.

1st of July 2009,

1st day: Finally lil Rayius are able to join the class, due to many factors, have been dragging so long for him to enter the class. As before, everybody including me will expect he will sure cry like hell on the 1st day, but darling really proved everyone wrong!!! haha, he didn't cry at all....

but.............

2nd day: I walked out of the classroom without his notice while he was focusing on his puzzle game, I thought everything was fine until I picked him up after school, and you know what? His teacher told me that he actually cried for few minutes, but he stopped when the teacher on some song for them to sing and dance. His teacher feedback was "wow, Rayius like singing and dancing a lot ya, he stopped his crying when I on the song!"

3rd day: I brought him down to school 15minutes earlier before school starts, cos I wanted to let him relax himself by playing at the playground. When school starts, as usual, the teacher have to take every child's temperature and check on their hand, foot and mouth. when his turns came the teacher said"hello good morning Rayius, now teacher is going to take yr temperature ya, show me yr hand foot and mouth.. :)" Rayius refuse to show his mouth to teacher and started to worry that I'll leave him straight after all those check up. He started to hold my hand real tight, and ask me to do whatever he needs to do in the class with him. This time round I took quite a long time to convince him but still , he refuse to co-operate. His teacher starts to carry him up and bring him to somewhere and ask me to leave, and I leave with my heart aching real seriously, I think all mummies will have this kinda feeling for sure.

Hopefully lil Rayius will start to adapt to his school life soon with my worries....

Overall, I can see he really enjoy schooling with all his lovely classmate...

sOoOoo cute~~~~