USS with R.S.N.Y.J.V

Girls outing with all my beloved babes to Universal Studio Singapore!

                   Say so much is real damn useless, I can only say , that day was a damn play hard day. All of us having lots of fun. I shall let the pictures to tell you all man.

New Job!!!

Hi peep I'm back since so long from January... Miss blogging but no time.... really damn no time , OH MY!

I got my new job , working as CSC at London Weight Managerment. Actually I shld be in this company few years ago but due to a lot of reason and alot of things to consider , I dragged until now. Finally I got into the company.

A lot of my friend's feedback was , it is damn tough in beauty line. It really affect me initially but I don't care la, bcos I was thinking that, I nv try how will I know how really tough is it , Maybe I can take the tough easily nehz, Right ???

I hope I can earn more and excel high in this co, so please pray hard for me ppl... thanks ya!

23rd Jan 2011

Have been damn busy recently, also don't know busy for what purpose...

Damn sick and tired of life alrd...

Is just like my life is not living for my own, like living for other.. F**K

I hate it!!!

I just wanna be alone happily with my son ....

Any other troublesome issue, please leave me alone...

LOVE IS NOT A RELATIONSHIP. Love relates, but it is not a relationship.

LOVE IS NOT A RELATIONSHIP. Love relates, but it is not a relationship. A relationship is something finished. A relationship is a noun; the full stop has come, the honeymoon is over. Now there is no joy, no enthusiasm, now all is finished. You can carry it on, just to keep your promises. You can carry it on because it is comfortable, convenient, cozy. You can carry it on because there is nothing else to do. You can carry it on because if you disrupt it, it is going to create much trouble for you… Relationship means something complete, finished, closed.

Love is never a relationship; love is relating. It is always a river, flowing, unending. Love knows no full stop; the honeymoon begins but never ends. It is not like a novel that starts at a certain point and ends at a certain point. It is an ongoing phenomenon. Lovers end, love continues– it is a continuum. It is a verb, not a noun.

And why do we reduce the beauty of relating to relationship? Why are we in such a hurry? Because to relate is insecure, and relationship is a security. Relationship has a certainty; relating is just a meeting of two strangers, maybe just an overnight stay and in the morning we say goodbye. Who knows what is going to happen tomorrow? And we are so afraid that we want to make it certain, we want to make it predictable. We would like tomorrow to be according to our ideas; we don't allow it freedom to have its own say. So we immediately reduce every verb to a noun.

You are in love with a woman or a man and immediately you start thinking of getting married. Make it a legal contract. Why? How does the law come into love? The law comes into love because love is not there. It is only a fantasy, and you know the fantasy will disappear. Before it disappears settle down, before it disappears do something so it becomes impossible to separate.

In a better world, with more meditative people, with a little more enlightenment spread over the earth, people will love, love immensely, but their love will remain a relating not a relationship. And I am not saying that their love will be only momentary. There is every possibility their love may go deeper than your love, may have a higher quality of intimacy, may have something more of poetry and more of godliness in it. And there is every possibility their love may last longer than your so-called relationship ever lasts. But it will not be guaranteed by the law, by the court, by the policeman. The guarantee will be inner. It will be a commitment from the heart, it will be a silent communion.

If you enjoy being with somebody, you would like to enjoy it more and more. If you enjoy the intimacy, you would like to explore the intimacy more and more. And there are a few flowers of love which bloom only after long intimacies. There are seasonal flowers too; within six weeks they are there, in the sun, but within six weeks again they are gone forever. There are flowers that take years to come, and there are flowers that take many years to come. The longer it takes, the deeper it goes. But it has to be a commitment from one heart to another heart. It has not even to be verbalized, because to verbalize it is to profane it. It has to be a silent commitment; eye to eye, heart to heart, being to being. It has to be understood, not said.

Forget relationships and learn how to relate.

Once you are in a relationship you start taking each other for granted– that's what destroys all love affairs. The woman thinks she knows the man, the man thinks he knows the woman. Nobody knows either! It is impossible to know the other, the other remains a mystery. And to take the other for granted is insulting, disrespectful.

To think that you know your wife is very, very ungrateful. How can you know the woman? How can you know the man? They are processes, they are not things. The woman that you knew yesterday is not there today. So much water has gone down the Ganges; she is somebody else, totally different. Relate again, start again, don't take it for granted.

And the man that you slept with last night, look at his face again in the morning. He is no more the same person, so much has changed. So much, incalculably much has changed. That is the difference between a thing and a person. The furniture in the room is the same, but the man and the woman, they are no more the same. Explore again, start again. That's what I mean by relating.

Relating means you are always starting, you are continuously trying to become acquainted. Again and again, you are introducing yourself to each other. You are trying to see the many facets of the other's personality. You are trying to penetrate deeper and deeper into his realm of inner feelings, into the deep recesses of his being. You are trying to unravel a mystery which cannot be unraveled. That is the joy of love: the exploration of consciousness.

And if you relate, and don't reduce it to a relationship, then the other will become a mirror to you. Exploring him, unawares you will be exploring yourself too. Getting deeper into the other, knowing his feelings, his thoughts, his deeper stirrings, you will be knowing your own deeper stirrings too. Lovers become mirrors to each other, and then love becomes a meditation. Relationship is ugly, relating is beautiful.

Hence I say relate. By saying relate, I mean remain continuously on a honeymoon. Go on searching and seeking each other, finding new ways of loving each other, finding new ways of being with each other. And each person is such an infinite mystery, inexhaustible, unfathomable, that it is not possible that you can ever say, "I have known her," or, "I have known him." At the most you can say, "I have tried my best, but the mystery remains a mystery."

In fact the more you know, the more mysterious the other becomes. Then love is a constant adventure. 

It's GONE!!!

SAD!!!

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Hi peeep, still remember I did mention I got alot to blog in my last post. Now everything is gone , without the pitures, I really don't know to how to blog and no mood to blog at all. All the awesome pictures has gone with no reason. WHY WHY WHY!!!! @#$%^&*

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400 over pictures just gone like this , OMG.... Hard to accept the facts la!!!

I got so much to blog till I don't know which one to kick off with!!!

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Ok , I start of with our cousin gathering at Beer Market @ Clark Quay.

This gathering involve Me, Samuel Lim, Akina Leong, Gray Leong, Rachel Leong and Jialing Neo. With the companion of Annie Teng (Ah Jie), Brother Bean (ah dao), Wei Li (kor kor), Pauline Cai (saw hai) and co. Cut short to describe the "backside gathering and let the pictures explain everything. Overall , the night was fun, fUN, FUN!!!

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Of cos , the fun atmosphere is created but a few awesome freak, they got those weird and special cell in their brain which normal person doesn't own this.

They are Gray, Samuel n Brother bean.

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These are the pictures we took !

SICK AND TIRED!!!

Lala is sick!!!

Mentally and physically

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Feeling so feverish on and off, body aching everywhere, gastirc on and off... what's wrong with me man..

Feeling sooooooo stress over work, have never been so stress before, everything is so wrong, getting comment over whatever shit!

ARGH!!!

This not right, That not right,What else is right then?

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I'm in agony!!!

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LALA REALLY NOT HAPPY!!!

Sarong Party Night at Illuzion

It's my another successful event!!!

Thanks for all the effort from my hardworking , sporting and pretty gals..

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YOU ALL ARE AWESOME!!!

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Last but not least, thanks Chika, sha sha and Rozie for your pro dance!