D E P R E S S E D

Is it if you made some mistake, it will follow you forever and no chance will be given to you? Everyone makes mistake..... I made a mistake once, and I felt that this is going to ruin my life , I didn't realise how serious the affection might be for the past few year, until when I wanted to start my life afresh to look for stable , normal day job. Good job with good benefit and nice prospect will never take in such record. Regrating for what I have done in the past is already not an issue now. The issue now is, with a record when you decided to work hard and climb high, no one will be helping you, in fact some of them look down on you, condemn you and make you climb slower... My application for this job was smooth initially but now something cock up again, due to my stupid record, luckily I've met a good employer who willing to do so much for me such as appealing. For the past, so what if I have record in the past. Now I can feel how serious it can affect my future. I understand if I got rejected but it really hurt.................

It hurts my pride!
It makes me lost my confident!
It affects my life seriously!
They make me feel so hopeless in this society!

Don't ever make mistake, regardless of whatever issue..... .. . . . . . . . . . . .

I made the wrong path at my starting point, I could have living much more better than now. My life shouldn't be like this... I'm living like hell now, I am not myself, what I'm having now is not what I want. I give out chances again and again but no ideal result was shown. I really don't know how long I can tolerate all this shit happen to me... I'm already somewhere there.

HOW CAN BE SO DOWN ON LUCK, REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND !!! ARGH!!! FCUK MAN...
I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS!!!

Maybe it's not your fault for cant giving me a good life, maybe luck also not shining on you. BUT I really don't know how long I still can tolerate. I can't stand it much more longer... I really don't know meeting you is destiny or god is making fun of us.

Darling's Graduation Day

It's darling's Graduation Day... This day, they not not require for any lesson. Parents are invited to the school and watch their dancing performance. The scene of the last day of school was so touched. The kids hugged the teacher one by one followed by the wishes from the teacher and asst teacher. The scene really melts my heart ... Million thanks to the teacher and asst teacher from STARTOTS PLAYGROUP for the care and teaching for my precious all these while.

Random

Hi readers... I have been neglecting my blog. I was busying preparing for my blogshop and finally....... It's OPEN NOW!!!! Trendy top, bottom, jacket/coat, dresses and JUST IN legging. hope you guys support ya... http://www.princessconcept.blogspot.com/

I got my 1st customer, Miss JOLYNN NG... Thanks bitch for your support ya.. love u =)

I have been rotting at home recently.. Jobless, don't feel like going out.. cos going out need to spend money, haix... In Singapore everything is so expensive except the air. lol~~ been to tons of interviews also, quite sickening ,cos keep repeating saying the same thing writing the same words..... Omg worst is NO REPLY!!! sot sia.. Luckily My "e-bong" arrange me for an interview at her company and it goes damn smoothly, they actually shortlisted me on the spot and wanted to pass me appointment letter to sign. Instead of signing the letter, I told them  I'll go down and sign it in few days time.. hee~~ I also don't know what I'm doing, in the end I promised them I will go down and sign it on monday.. Yippie, I got my new job =)  Gonna start work  on the 1st dec, excited , scary and sianx... Cos I used to NUA at home alrd ~~ bleh

Missing~ ~ ~ ~ ~ 

I think I have to go out for fresh air..... have been recycle my air in the house for too long already. Not very god for my health hor.. Okay, tomorrow I shall go out for a walk and drink =)

sony ericsson SATIO
I fcuking hate this sony ericsson, I have been waiting for decades for this phone cos Im so loving it!!!! and it fcuking launched when I'm broke...  have been so unlucky recently SUAY!!! when is the SUAY going to leave me, pls leave me along man... sob~~ (;_;)

I had successfully hit the weight at 45.2kg, yippie!!!!! another 1.2kg to go I will be content.

Poor lil Rayius, once he got Hand foot mouth disease. Now he got H1N1, he really got weak body I think. He is not strong enough to prevent all those rubbish sickness. Luckily the doctor say is a slight one,not very serious, only need to quarantine at home for 10 days and he's free. Hope darling will recover very soon and mummy will buy your favourite yakult for U ok.

Still Missing~ ~ ~

completely down

I have been very down for this period of time... Don't really feel like blogging. This kinda period can consider my very down period in my entire life. Haix, luck has not been with me for decades.... 风水轮流转，几时才会转回我身边？The thing i wanna do most now is, work hard and get away for some trip and relax... This Singapore is getting bored and ugly.

Things girls don't realize....

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

23. ,b>If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

hope everything goes smooth for me

I have been crazily hunting for job recently... The most crazy, I went for 3 interviews each day. Somehow I felt so disappointed each time I finish an interview, because it's either the working hour is damn damn long or the salary is damn pitiful little... I have been thinking for the whole yesterday night when I was lying on my bed, I think I shld be more hard working to look for some mid high end company to join, in order to get good pay and benefit. So I cal Joey today and ask her to arrange an interview for me at London weight management. Hope everything will go smooth for me.

Good Luck to me... Stella Lim

I think I starting to have some feeling for super junior from Korea... Their 'sorry sorry' is damn awesome la, regardless the song or the dance make me so crazy in it... OMG!!!! All members in super junior is cool n style especially when they dance.... I love it!!!

Party with my bitches.....

This Janice is drunk again... sigh, I told her I MUST blog about her this night. she is super duper high, in fact I believe is drunk la. Do you guys know what she did outside Le bar, she drop her lighter and yet she pick up a cigarette bud on the floor.... hahahaha

me and von

cry baby and lala

me and Alicia

I adore you

Lisa, Yvonne and Stella

Yvonne, Lisa and me

Fated to meet

THIS IS...........

the 1st night I went partying with von since she married, or even can say a period of time before she married, due to her vexing stuff, she needs to come out for some fresh air.. as for what has happen to her, I think it's not convenient to disclose here.. sorry :) We have a quite enjoyable night, with Lisa and some IP zone stuff , or ex stuff, hee I don't really know sia.. never ask much. I can see Von quite enjoy her day that night although thru out the day she still got some argument with XXXXX.... She is fcuking high la!!! hahaha, She reprimanded me for making her fake eye lash drop.. hey man, I didn't do it purposely K, I wipe your tears with good intention , you this cry baby, next time buy stronger lash glue la, aiyo. She said she have to bring extra lash out when she go out with me.. muahahaha!!!!

anyway I really hope everything will goes fine for her soon... I don't know why recently there are a curse going ard.. Most of my friends got quarrel, argument session with their another half. hope everything goes fine for them too.. :( Hope this world goes round and round with peace.

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03/09/09 In memory of Danny Lee

This year is the 6th year since Danny left... I really can't deny times fly. Till now I still cannot forget how he left me, everything just happen in a moment. Sometimes I just cannot understand why god is so unfair, god take him away in such a sudden and this is so cruel to so many ppl. Sometimes I would think that am I the Jinx to him who causes all this. He ask me whether shld him ride his bike to the chalet, I said "ride lo, if wanna buy stuff is more convenient". If i know everything will end up like this, I will definitely say NO. I nv mention this incident recently, so let me refresh a bit. In some days of july 2003, we book a chalet for Doreen's 18th bday, we really very enjoy the chalet, perhaps we actually whack the whole chalet..lol !!! Suddenly, Bebe comes to Doreen and says" eh Doreen, you very cb de leh, invited ppl come but nv entertain ppl!" hahaha then Doreen was like so shock and replied" Since when I invited them". From that moment, I met Danny........ The whole chalet was so happening and crazy, and I'm craving for something to fill my tummy but we do not have transport to travel there until I heard the group actually ride here. I also forget and don't know how I approach him to sent me there. The most funny part was when I got all my thing and stand in front of the cashier and I realise that I nv bring any cent with me and I ask Danny to pay.. hahaha ( Doreen says" u very daring hor, what if he nv bring $ leh.") hahaha , seriously at the point of time I nv feel anything cos I'm in high mode already.. LOL so this is how I met Danny...

As for how we get tgt I really don't...... In fact, I don't even know whether are we officially tgt. but I can only say he really dote on me a lot lo... He did quite a lot of thing for me which I think I don wanna bring up here la.... Our relationship is very short and yet is very memorable... When the day he passed away which is on 03/09/03, I was completely loss, I don't know what to do next and perhaps I was shocked! Cos I never expect this kinda thing will happen to me.

Anyway, this is already the past and I can only place him in my mind as a good memory. Hope Danny is doing well and living happily in another world....

Danny, you are always remember by us................... bless you

09-09-09

Ytd night was quite a peaceful normal working night. I have myself, my bitchy Jolynn, drunkard Janice and a new girl name Cat. We actually don't have enough ppl to work so Pauline arrange Janice to help up. After a week when this funny funny arrangement started, ytd was the 1st night I met Janice. I thought we will drifted apart but I was totally wrong, we miss each other sooOOoOoo much!!!! We hugged together and say we missed each other soOooo much like have nv meet for century... hahaha... Though ytd sales figure is not in satisfaction thus we had an enjoyable working night... cheers

Politics

Politics in offices, I believe every readers heard and seen before... but pub politic I'm sure not everyone heard before. Is kind of...... how should I put it? Shame? don't know how to say. With effect from 1st sept 09, something funny funny will happen.. n bloody shit, I really hate and unwilling la! I believe is a kind of way for the bosses to make money or what, I don't know.. I really don't know what the hell in their mind. They only think for their own benefit. I strongly agree with what Janice told me that day, she told me that she also don't like this kind of arrangement. It hurts we gals relationship seriously.... Most of our gals have been working together for years already, now have to separate into 2 groups. I think we will end up with internal conflict which I think some of us will not realise and the boss will happily counting the revenue in the office. Hope my cousin will get back to me asap with the interview notice for SK. Hope can leave this hell asap.


I really miss those days when the place just open. Everyone work with a smile. Laughter's goes ard in the place, and everyone knock off with peace and joy. Although there is sure problem happened but it is easily solve and we learn to forgive and forget.


I also don't understand why there is someone who is soOoOoOO looking into the commission. When I say is SoOOOoOOOo, I mean is very very SoOoO sOooOoo, it's exaggerate!!!!! Can u imagine, they rush to those customer like 180km/h if they know the customer is opening C bot. When the customer is opening beer, they walk just like Louis Vuitton Fashion Show. really BTH LA!!! Is it so important to get the bot comm? yes, money is very important but building up a good relationship and impression with fellow colleague, isn't it more important. Maybe she really needs a lot of money, in order to change a better "BUCKLE SEATS!!!!" for her car... Whahahaha


I really hope this stupid things won't affect our relationship, PEACE... WoRRY!!!

Random Random Random

I'm BACK!!!

Recently quite a lot of things happen, I also don't wer to start off with..... I think Im not going to bring up those saddening stuff to make u guy's mood bad...... I shall share something joyful with u guys.... :)

It's doreen's bday celebration at the cafe del mar (Sentosa) We have doreen, eileen, yvonne, me, eelyn, jie lin, nicole and bebe. We enjoy a whole hot afternoon, evening there by drinking and get high, partying and crazy photo taking. Happy bday to doreen......


Follow by my darling's 3rd bday celebration at The Chevron.....
All beloved friends and family came with their warm blessing and gift to the party and they are serve with home cooked buffet and snack..... Thanks you guys so much to give my boy an unforgettable bday party... Rayius is very happy that day!!!

I have been so moody recently, nothing can make me laugh or even smile. I hereby gotta thanks all my beloveds one like who given me courage and concern all this while. Whenever I feel down, I felt so grateful that I still have u all ard me. Thanks for not giving me up. Muacks and a big huggie for u all.

There are 2 celebration coming up!

Gotta get high and crazy on this coming Tuesday at cafe del mar. It's Doreen's bday bash!!!!!

hope we'll have unforgettable day.

Follow up is my beloved darling's 3rd bday at the Chervron.

Think this few celebration will help me to set all those rubbish aside temporary....

I finally sound everything out with all my complains. Overall I still think you are so immature. Instead of realise your mistake, you pushing it all back to me. Our problem is all internal, if you're not observant enough, I bet you won't understand and will start to assumed that I'm the one who start all problem for nothing. I'm really very sick and tired alrd can't you see. Instead you come out a solution to solve, you ask me whether am i still angry. Sometimes I wander you really understand what is going on anot, it's no longer whether I'm still angry anot you know. I can tell you, I'm not angry, there's nothing I can feel now alrd, cos my heart is DEAD. 我和你已经没有爱情，感情也慢慢在淡化了。我的心会隐隐作痛，因为一段婚姻经营得如此的差。

Tired

I'm very tired this few days, really damn tired. Wake up 8am in the morning, prepare darling's stuff, settle myself, bring darling to school and get myself to work. Although is tired, but seriously I quite like it. It can numb myself from bothering those bloody stupid stuff. You must be wandering what bloody stupid stuff, I also not very sure, I started to behave weird, sometimes my attitude was not very good, sometimes I choose to shut my mouth towards everybody except my lil sweet heart. I start boiling easily. I started to have unstable emotion. I really don't know why. Please don't tell me that is a depression, I have been searching information regarding depression in web, but i think I'm not that serious or even don't have maybe I think too much. I get headache easily, I feel like biting and scratching myself when i get agitated. Now I only like to stick with my lil sweet heart, beside work and him and it's still work and him. It has been a long time that I nv hold my stomach and laugh out loud.


:'(

DIRTY DIRTY DIRTY!!!

I really don't understand why some people can simply don't have the responsibility of tidying up of their own nest, that is your very own home isn't it, you have to be responsible to keep it clean and tidy isn't it? Or are you waiting for someone helpful or rather a poor thing who wish to live in a clean enviornment to make it everything done for you all? Well I think it is a responsibilty for everyone who staying together to maintain a clean enviornment.

Misses....

Hi, I really miss blogging like hell! I have been staying at mummy's place for the past 2 weeks. Cause I need to accompany my bf to school and fetch him after school. I loves the feeling when he start to wave at me with his lil hand and say bye bye to me without crying, I loves to see his face when he finish his school. I loves staying mummy's place so much The only thing I need to complain is, mummy's place don't have a computer, it caused my hand to itch terribly when I wanted to blog and surf net. How I wish I got a personal laptop that I can bring it along with me wherever I go, so that I can blog and surf net anytime anywhere.


Gotta end here, will blog more with more photo upload when I found my free time... Bye byeee!

Catz

This day, we happen to passed by this cat sitting in this funny position on the way back home, I found it cute so I took these pictures down. This weird cat sit just like a human being. Funny sia! BUT I seriously dislike cat, actually can put it this way, I scare of cats. I scare their long tail , they always touches you when they pass under your sit at the kopitiam when you happily having your meal. EEeeeeee "er xin" lo.

sick~~

Both darling and me is not feeling well............................................. :-(

Poor lil darling start his running nose this morning after bathing, at 1st I just tot that it caused by the air con every morning as usual. After school, his teacher informed me that his running nose is getting from bad to worst. Just brought him to consult the doctor earlier on, doctor said he only have minor flu and cough not serious. Darling was given 3 different medicine to finish. cough (black in colour"coke"), flu (green in colour "green apple" and fever (pink in colour "strawberry") mixture. Darling says this medicines are coke, green apple and strawberry to overcome his fear of swallowing these all down his throat.. haha cute~~ Now he is sleeping, not really having a good sleep I can tell, as he keep turning left and right and keep sneezing. My heart is so painful to see him like this. Haix, hopefully this virus wont pester him for long.

Poor me, rib cage aching since morning, it has been torturing me for good.... The feeling is like one of my rib broken, dangling inside me and rub with my organ inside me.. the feeling is so uncomfortable. I hope this can recover ASAP, I don't wanna end myself up in any hospital or clinic caused it's also kinda troublesome when you visit this kinda places. May god bless my son and me to recover soon. AMEN.

I caught it red handed!!!!!

LOOK What's this !!! I caught my bf holding another girl's hand. Rayius Eloy, I pay your school fee is for you to learn in school not for you to "sian char bo" okay!!! whahaha



Darling really love this lil cute si ying alot, he'll always wanna hold her hand after school and walk back home tgt.



SoOOOoooO cute!

1st july 09.

Ikea again, after darling's class we went Tampines branch to search for our stuff. Look at naughty Rayius above, looks like his house ya. LOL! I have been staying at my mummy house for the past few days since Rayius started school, it had been so long that I nv really enjoy the time with my family, the feeling was soOoOo shiok, have not been staying at my own house for long, this time round I really really enjoy and release staying at home, only staying at my own house, then I know what is call home sweet home , hee... Readers that read this part might be wandering whether I'm upset staying here, Yes I can tell you. I'm super duper uncomfortable and unhappy staying here. maybe I really like privacy lo, and I love and miss my family more...

30th June 2009

This day was a very very busy day, in the afternoon, I meet my mummy at Ikea to shop for some small furniture, and mummy was LATE for nearly an hour, quite pissed off but luckily I got my darling accompany me. We headed to the Ikea restaurant for some pasta and meat balls. After eating, we started to take out my hp and play a fool with the camera while waiting mummy to come, but all those pictures taken by darling was bloody ugly la, so I deleted all. We didn't actually buy much cos the stocks at Alexandra branch is not so complete. So, mummy decided to go Tampines branch the next day.

Next I had to rush to KK hospital to visit Eileen with Doreen, so mummy ask me to share a cab with her and she send me down there. Due to the H1n1 disease, it's kinda of many many process and registration in order to enter the hospital, so instead of we going up to visit her, she came down to see us. ha ha ha, don't say we cruel hor, cos she got a lot of friends who visited her at the same timing and only 2 person per visit. So isn't it better for her to come down hee. Just kidding, we can't really wait for our turn to come cos lil Kycia is crying for hunger in the car alrd, so we are quite rush. After that went to Doreen house "chop chop" settle our dinner fast as I got another shift to go~~ haha


This is naughty Kycia, playing so crazily in the car with me. In the end she got a nightmare that night... hahaha







Next, rushed to woodlands centre to meet my family, have to buy darling's school shoes and shop for groceries.I cannot imagine we can shop till sheng siong closed at the time of 11pm. wow!!!

Time for introducing products, I was wandering why the clothes that mummy washed always smell so fragrance, now i know it's a softener brand "DOWRY". It;s really smell soOooO nice lo!!!

He always likes to sit in there.......

Darling's new pair of school shoes and slippers. "婆婆买的" thank you mummy for so loving Rayius!!!!